Happy 50th Anniversary on this beautiful Earth Day!
She has been around so much longer than any living thing, and I am so happy to be celebrating with cleaner skies, this year. I am paying tribute to our amazing Mother Earth with this painting.
A mother cradles her children in her arms. Calm. Quiet. She grows. Flourishing green. She gives them flowers. Fresh air. They breathe with her. They try to love her in the way she has always loved them.
The original concept sketch came to me about a year and a half ago. I sat down to paint her this March but something held me back, so I waited. The painting was supposed to be of a woman holding only flowers. The idea for adding our blue planet and morphing her into Mother Earth came to me last week. I’m so happy with the result.
We already knew that we had pollution issues, but people were too worried about making green instead of preserving the green that ultimately preserves us. (Funny how Mother Earth’s trees also create that green money in our hands…) Instead of finding LARGE effective solutions, we decided to twiddle our thumbs and just live life and hope for the best. Companies and people aren’t quick to find solutions unless they can make money. Maybe if they get a swift kick in the behind they will react. I think that this pandemic is a wake up call. I hope it is.
I hope that a lot changes. (especially commuting…I am so tired of traffic, car accidents, and crumbling roads) A great deal of us live lavish lives and we don’t make any effort to understand the destructive footprints that we leave behind while walking through our daily routines. We become machines who work for machines, for a system that is failing us and failing the planet. We can do better.
But I have a sinking feeling that nothing will change. People are antsy to return to work for a paycheck (understandable), and this short pause that the whole world is taking is causing a lot of grief. Big unnecessary buildings weren’t created so that we could sit in our kitchens and work from home. That would be too reasonable. People don’t like change. Companies hate change. This reality is devastating.
Our one and only planet (and we have only one, people…we aren’t going to farm on Mars anytime soon) is trying to give us a look into another way of life. Steps in the right direction, though I prefer leaps, would be a wonderful turnaround from our toxic ways of living. But I think we are too far in, and we are too selfish to care.
I dream of a world where we walk hand in hand with nature, and we take care of her, the way we are supposed to. This doesn’t mean we have to live in the woods or in tiny houses. But I don’t think it’s unreasonable to collaborate with nature as much as “other companies”.
Wow. It has been about two and a half years since my last blog post. Sometimes life takes over and rocks you around a bit. I thought about deleting this website, but when I looked back at my posts and compared them to who I am today it brings me happiness. Life is a journey, and discovering passions and purpose is a journey too. A lot has changed with me, and my art, so I am going to touch VERY briefly on what happened, what is happening, and what will happen.
Rediscovered watercolor and ink mediums
Created a ton of nerd art (mostly Star Wars) digitally and with watercolors
Went to Hawaii with my friends for a week (woot!)
Did a few art shows with the nerd art and pretty lady art
Met the love of my life
Stopped all of the above around April 2018 because my mom’s cancer went terminal
Took care of my mom who passed away in August 2018
Respite – time to mourn, find happiness again, spend time with my love
October to December 2018 Harvest Festival art shows featuring storybook watercolors
Lost my grandfather and my little fur baby love, Maximus (what a wonderful cat)
Developed a new style of artwork using ink, watercolor, crepe paper, and crystals
January 2019 JOB HUNTING because BILLS and DEBT
Hired at Manresa March 2019 to June 2019
Hired at Lisa’s Tea Treasures June 2019
Moved to a happy home October 2019
Debt free in January 2020! Finally! Woot!
Realized that I need to pursue art, and took a leap of faith to open Art With Erika
Everything happens for a reason. I believe it. I am the queen of pursuing dreams and burying them, and I think it is for the ultimate good. I am more than good at a lot of different things, and having an array of talents and skills made life complicated sometimes because I never really knew what I wanted to do. Now that I had tested different careers and paths and tossed them aside, I feel like I am focused. I have found a formula for what will work for me, and what I love to do, and what I can give back. (The latter being the most important)
I am currently pursuing art full time. This might change, and it might not, depending on how sales rack up over the next few months. I am trying to enjoy the process as much as possible. My website is up and running, I updated my blog, I updated Instagram and Facebook, I am getting all of my ducks in a row. NOW, I can sit down and actually DO art!
What Will Happen
Art With Erika has started. It’s out in the open, it is lovely, and it is a small dip into a collection of whimsical art that I want to dive in to. I am signed up to participate in a few local shows. Lisa’s Tea Treasures in Campbell will be a primary spot to take a look at art prints and cards and make purchases if you want to buy something in person as opposed to my online store. I am very proud of what has happened in the last month, and I am excited to share more with all of you in the future as things progress.
Aside from the art itself, I have become a certified life coach, and am working on getting a master’s certification, so that I might be able to help people find their own artistic purpose. But, details with all of this will come a little later. Art classes and training will probably be offered at some point too.
I also started dabbling in writing, again. Whether or not I will share my poetry openly has not been decided, but it is out there on instagram somewhere if you want to find it.
My focus is ultimately on contentment and positivity. I believe that there is a silver lining with every situation. I do think that sometimes we have to look at dark things and dive deep in order to appreciate what we have in front of us, so that we can move forward. But no one should have to sit in the dark for a long time.
This blog will serve as a home base for all of the activities that I dabble in. I will be updating it periodically with personal dark art projects, personal insights and stories, and things that matter to me most. Not all of this is great for happy whimsical watercolor marketing on Facebook or Instagram, but I wanted the flexibility to help people on a deeper level and in a raw human way, by sharing my own experiences and giving perspective on different topics. I hope you will come back often if this blog speaks to you. If not, I’ll see you on the light and happy side of the Art With Erika platform.
Note: This article uses male gender pronouns for “the narcissist”. Both men and women can be diagnosed with Narcissistic Personality Disorder, but it is more common in men. To read more about NDP click here.
Narcissistic Personality Disorder (NPD) is a parasitical disease that affects those especially close to the narcissist. His uses his suave and charming personality mixed with cunning manipulation in order to move around pawns in a game whose only objective is to glorify himself, the gamekeeper. There are small moments when the narcissist’s mask falls off around friends, acquaintances, and family, usually in a spurt of anger or debate where personal offense has been taken. But generally speaking, the only people who will see the real narcissist without a mask will be those who are a part of his innermost circle.
Who is in this innermost circle? They are the people who he believes that he owns (this ownership can be conscious or subconscious). His roommates and close friends rarely come close enough to experience consistent abuse because he can separate himself and take breaks from his act. But long-term lovers, spouses, and children become the most valued pieces in his collection because he sees each one of them, especially his children, as an extension of himself. He interacts with them frequently.
In a healthy household, parents will raise their children to become confident, independent, and healthy adults. No household and no parent is perfect, but healthy children develop a balanced sense of self and their relationships evolve with the adult figures in their life. This is not the case with a narcissist’s family.
A narcissist’s only mission in life is to paint a grandiose representation of himself to the world. And because the narcissist sees his spouse and his children as an extension of himself he trains them and uses them as a status symbol beneath the guise of a loving and caring family. The most important thing to a narcissist is to maintain the image of success. If you are part of his family you will be given a role to play and it will be your responsibility to act your heart out in public. There are only two rules in the house of a narcissist’s family:
the narcissist needs to always come first
the image of the narcissist and his family must never be limited by the needs of the spouse and their children
Every spouse and child is assigned a role by the narcissist himself. These roles include the golden child, the scapegoat, and the invisible child. Over a period of time the children adopt secondary roles that include the hero/responsible child, the caretaker/placater, the mascot/clown, and the mastermind/manipulator. Children may end up adopting one or more of these roles, and roles can switch multiple times over the course of one’s life, depending upon how the narcissist feels and how he measures that child against the others. He also weighs them with consideration to personal goals at any given moment.
The bottom line is that a narcissist would rather gloat about himself to try to impress a stranger rather than be loved by his own family. All the while, his children, forever starving for love, bend over backwards to try to scrounge for breadcrumbs of his approval. In public they wear the happy masks that he has made for each one of them.
The Roles Cast by the Narcissist
The Enabler – this role is usually played by the spouse (or a daughter). She does the narcissist’s bidding and plays nice in order to gain approval from the narcissist. She orbits around when she is not helping him. Her life revolves around fulfilling every need of the narcissist. This is a role typically filled by a codependent individual, who grew up in an abusive home, and whose sense of self revolved around giving up herself in order to win love and favor from people around her. There are many cases where a codependent spouse realizes the error of his or her ways after being married to a narcissist for so many years. She comes to a breaking point and realizes the damage that has been done to the children because of her own irresponsibility and her own brokenness. But when that moment of realization hits, she can do nothing but sit back and watch her damaged children perform for her abusive spouse; she can only hope that her children will discover their own brokenness much earlier than she had.
The Golden Child– she is assigned her role according to her gifts and talents. This role could be set aside for the first or second child but as the narcissist’s children are born, or as his children leave the household, the role can shift to other children. This child is given special treatment and the narcissist seems to value this child the most. He will train this child so that she can act out the perfect masquerade of his perfect parenting. Most of the time the child will become a clone of the narcissist, adopting his beliefs, habits, and if this child stays in this role for their entire adolescence, it is likely that this child will also become a narcissist. But if the role ever shifts and the golden child is “demoted” (even if she is tossed in and out of the role) it is likely that the child will develop codependency, instead. Because the narcissist and the enabler put this child on a pedestal they also form a different bond with her than with the rest of the children. Her siblings become jealous of the special treatment that she has been given, but in the long run this could be the most damaging role among the children. It will be harder for her, as an adult, to separate herself and find her true self apart from her parents. She becomes an extension of their relationship and the most puppet-like of the children. Unless she is able to acknowledge the abuse and heal from it she will keep running in unfulfilled abusive circles, searching for love and fulfillment, but always falling short.
The Scapegoat – this child is the one who can do nothing right. They are labeled a “bad seed” and tend to be the most outspoken of the children with a “look at me” persona. The narcissist will use this child as a punching bag, and they will be the recipient of the most abuse among the children. The scapegoat and the golden child seem to be at odds with each other most of the time. The children understand that the narcissist’s affections are given ‘freely’ to the top performing child, so the scapegoat tries to dethrone the golden child in order to win the love and affection of the narcissist, unaware of the toxicity of the coveted role. The scapegoat is most likely to develop a sense of self and awareness, but it will be damaged. They will probably be successful and independent later on in life, driven by a need to succeed and to prove themselves worthy of love, but they will still need to address the childhood trauma that went on in their household in order to heal from the abuse.
The Lost Child/Invisible Child – he receives no praise and no blame from the narcissist. In the narcissist’s eyes, there is “no use” for him. The lost child becomes very independent, isolated, and lonely. A lot of the time they do become self-sufficient but they fall prey to emotions of unworthiness and they constantly feel unloved throughout their lifetimes. These children are most likely to develop depression or substance abuse addictions.
The Secondary Roles Taken by the Children
The Hero/Responsible Child – most of the time this is the older sibling, but not always. This child takes on a perfectionist nature at a very young age and develops a “responsible parent” role. She is a true mask of a narcissistic family. She suppresses her emotions until she cannot feel them at all, she is extremely insecure, and she drives herself compulsively from one achievement to the next.
The Caretaker/Placater – she is the emotional rescuer of the family. She manages and shuffles around the ever changing moods of the family by listening, supporting, nurturing, and counseling. She is a very sensitive creature, calm, and understanding in nature. Although she tries to fix everyone around her, she seeks no emotional support for herself. She doesn’t know how to take care of herself, she only knows how to focus on everyone else. She is a people pleaser. Her self-worth is defined by what she can do for others. She gives love but she doesn’t know how to receive it back. She is only comfortable giving she is not comfortable receiving and as a result she will push away love. As she grows into adulthood she finds that her job is to fix and save people from themselves. She turns into a ‘grade A’ codependent person, whose relationships become one-sided, toxic, and abusive. She becomes a doormat for people and will usually choose a career in the caring profession.
The Mascot/Clown – this role is usually adopted by the youngest member of the family. He is responsible for the emotional well-being of the family but through the use of humor as opposed to care taking. He puts on a comedy show to divert the pain in the family. He is usually a happy-go-lucky person and a very likable individual who can make others laugh but who finds it difficult to make himself genuinely happy. He will usually suffer from depression. Because he is constantly putting on a show he doesn’t really develop any sense of authentic self and he struggles with feelings of emptiness and loneliness.
The Mastermind/Manipulator – he is sinister, selfish, and abusive. Paired with the golden child the role, the mastermind and manipulator will turn into a narcissist. He is driven by entitlement and coerces people through manipulation. He is sneaky enough to operate just below the radar and he uses the dysfunction and the rest of the family to his own benefit. He intentionally creates conflict among family members to get what he needs and what he wants. He knows how to put on the charms and can manipulate even the adults in the family. He can also take on the quality of a sinister jokester, echoing the words “What’s the matter? Can’t you take a joke?”
“The Narcissist’s Family”
My piece is called “The Narcissist’s Family” and it was important to me to try to capture the feeling of being a game piece in a narcissistic family unit. Children will grow up not being able to measure feelings in a healthy manner, or they develop a numb persona. Sadness and depression will develop later when they are aware enough to piece the abusive puzzle together. The golden child is brought into the limelight alongside the narcissist, with help from the enabler whose eyes are finally starting to see the truth of her lifestyle and her role in the abuse. She wonders if it is too late. She wonders what will happen to her children and to herself. She wonders if there is any hope for healing and happiness. The rest of her children will shuffle around in the shadows and wait for the beckoning calls of the game-keeper narcissist that shift at a moment’s notice. As long as his family plays each part perfectly they will be okay. They just need to avoid any action or phrase that will tarnish the image that he works so hard to maintain.
It is rare for a narcissist to raise another narcissist. There have been theories that have been thrown around about narcissists breeding people who are equally as abusive, but studies show that if you have been raised by narcissist you’re much more likely to develop codependency. A narcissist’s upbringing is centered on the idea of selfishness, and in his adult life he will search for people to aide him in building his grandiose pedestal. A codependent’s upbringing is centered on the idea selflessness, and in her adult life she will search for people to pour out her love to, in hopes that she will be loved in return with that same sacrifice that she so foolishly gives. When the two get together, it seems like a perfect partnership at first glance. To onlookers they are glorious, beautiful, and perfectly balanced. But, when one partner only gives and the other only takes, the fairytale love story falls into the cauldron and transforms into a poisonous apple…
Here’s a 1 minute slideshow of days 1 to 31 of Inktober. One drawing a day, 31 days, Halloween and horror themed, black and white awesomeness. If you want to read more about each drawing you can take a look at the Inktober post from a few days ago. Thank you so much for following me on my creative journey, and have a nightmare-filled weekend!
Inktober started out as a personal challenge to artist, Jake Parker, who wanted to form the habit of drawing something every day, specifically in ink. Over the next few years, professional and amateur artists around the world would join him in creating better drawing habits. This year, I was one of those artists.
I heard about the challenge from a creative cousin of mine only a few days before October 1st, and as we spoke on the phone I could hear my brain rattling around ideas. The Inktober challenge started in 2009. Artists are encouraged to draw in ink every day of October. Some people decided to do a half marathon and drew every other day, or even a few times a week. This was the first year that Jake Parker released a ‘word of the day’ prompt list. The list was optional, and was given to add an extra challenge or for inspirational use. (Inktober was all about creating good habits, whatever that meant to each artist). For me, this challenge was about forming a daily drawing habit, but, it turned out to be much more beneficial than I anticipated.
In the last few days of September I sat down with the prompt list and brainstormed ideas for the whole of Inktober. I decided to stick with the list that Jake gave and I also decided to add a Halloween monster creature theme to all of my drawings. It was important for me to make sure that the span of the month didn’t repeat any characters or monsters, and I wanted to feature creatures that spanned form mythology to modern urban legends.
Inking can be done on the computer or with quills, brushes, and an ink bottle. There are certain benefits to each medium and certain drawbacks. I did purchase a bottle of india black ink and did a test run with it, but I was so unfamiliar with the medium that I stuck with my computer. I grew up learning how to draw with pencil, and it wasn’t until college that I discovered ink in the form of pens. Using a bottle, quill, and a brush is a whole different ballgame. But, even drawing on my computer is still a huge challenge. I learn something new every time I jump into another project, and even through the month of October I saw an almost instant growth in my techniques and execution as the days went by. Lines started getting finer as I found out how to shade using different textures. They got so fine that the last few pieces started to look almost like pencil drawings.
The biggest discovery for me was drawing light versus shadow, and it happened by accident. The first day I drew a scene with a unicorn running away from a werewolf in the woods. I thought it would be neat to sketch out the figures by drawing the light of the moon using white ink on a black surface instead of starting with a white background and drawing the shadows to building up the darkness. I thought the first drawing was interesting, and the second drawing with Jekyll and Hyde was also intriguing with the black and white backgrounds next to each other. But on the third day, I had a breakthrough and went through a ton of growth, and the black background stuck with me through the remainder of the challenge. I love the look of it. I always had an issue with not creating enough shadow in my art, especially with pencils. Values were never dark enough which made everything a little flat. Working backwards, in a sense, and hitting figures with light is much more comfortable for me and this is something I never knew about myself. I will be taking this way of thinking with me into the future. It’s so important to be aware of how one works as an artist: where you work best, the time of day that you are most effective and creative, what mediums feel natural to you, and how your brain works when drawing.
I made it through all 31 days of inktober, and drew one image from start to finish every single day. Some days were daunting, and should have been spread over two or three days, but I am so proud of how much I have grown. This will be a great collection to add to my portfolio, and a wonderful experience to look back upon. And I know that is has paved the way for my techniques in the future. I just need to find a way to break out of my shell and figure out what I want to draw, next!
Below are days 1 through 31 of my inktober drawings. Each one is titled for the word of that day, and there is a description following. Thank you so much for visiting my blog!
The lines and the technique are SO CHUNKY compared to the final days of this challenge. It really is amazing to see the growth through each image. There are a handful of pieces that I would like to re-draw, or touch up, and this is one of them.
Day 2 features Dr Henry Jekyll and Mr Edward Hyde. This is the only piece in the collection that has a white background. From here on out I decided to start with completely black canvasses. This is also where the stipple dot technique is introduced. Very time consuming, but effective. I would have used it more for later pieces if it didn’t make my hand so sore. The dots are a lot larger and more spread out in this picture than later pieces. I will probably touch this one up later.
Medusa and her poison snake hair was a HUGE breakthrough for me as far as technique goes. The stipple dot effect is improving, and I am starting to get a hang of highlighting the hot spots of light. It was here that I made a decision to draw white on black.
Underwater is my first minimalist piece. I have always been a “more is more” kind of person, but after inking Medusa with the millions of dots the day before my hand needed a break. I also loved the “miniature” portion of the drawing. The use of black space as a ‘character’ of sorts will make its way into other pieces later on. You don’t need to fill every square inch of space to be effective in your artwork. (Sometimes I need to remind myself of this)
The Slender Man is a new paranormal phenomenon and he is featured in recent urban legends and in a video game or two. He is a tall, faceless, creature who roams around in broad daylight through suburban towns or in the woods. He is seen around children, and it is said that he follows certain victims throughout their lives until they are drawn to commit suicide. Very interesting character and the images online are insanely creepy.
The Headless Horseman of Sleepy Hollow has been a favorite story of mine since I can remember. Since the word was ‘sword’ I wanted to make sure that the sword was the center of attention, and I wanted to practice some foreshortening skills. (something I have never done before). I wanted it to feel like the horseman was slicing off your head. I would actually like to see this one redone, with color, and with better crosshatch shading in the figures.
Edward Scissorhands is probably one of the most adorable characters that Tim Burton has ever created. The movie is one of my go-to comfort films and the ballet is beautiful, too. (Thank you Matthew Bourne). Edward is so awkward and shy, and I love Johnny Depp and Winona Ryder, but I wanted to “re-cast” the characters just for fun. I decided to go with Josh Groban (you look up pictures of him and tell me he isn’t beautifully charming and awkward like Edward. I can see it) and Vanessa Hudgens (beautiful, adorable, and a wonderful alternative for Kim) You can see the reflection of Kim in Edward’s hands. This is one of those pieces that took a long time for research because of the details in the costume and the scissors. I wanted them to be as accurate to the movie as possible, but trying to make out what was on Edward’s shoulder was difficult. There is a metal and…something else. This is as close as I could get with photo references.
I would like to touch this one up, and add more of the dots around the faces specifically. I just ran out of time and energy, and my hand was screaming at me.
The Crooked Man is taken from an old nursery rhyme that actually has to do with the uniting of Scotland and England. It’s very cute. The modern interpretation of the Crooked Man is especially prevalent in The Conjuring movies. Material on the internet also points to a sadistic, old, hunched man who drives people to commit suicide. This is my version of the character, inspired by the actor Conrad Veidt, from “The Man Who Laughs”. Many people said that this piece reminded them of the Joker from Batman, and it is true. The Joker was inspired by Conrad. You can see it all over his twisted crazy face. Again, I would like to re-do the crosshatch shading on this one, now that I’ve figured things out. But, it’s nice to see the progression of the artwork over a short period of time.
This became one of my favorites of the collection. The dots have made their way back in a fanciful way. They almost look like glitter, and I love it. Screech made me think of ‘owls’ right away, but also aliens. “The Fourth Kind” was the last horror movie that I have ever watched (surprisingly, I don’t watch horror films…there is enough going on in my head and I find them overwhelming). There are many people who associate barn owls with aliens because their faces are so similar, and it is said that people who have been abducted have their memories wiped and replaced with images of owls that overshadow the aliens.
I find that a lot of people see the owl right away, within the light of the UFO, but if you look closer you can see the continuing outline of the alien in the shadows surrounding the owl’s head. Another way to find the owl is to look at the drawing techniques: the owl is drawn with lines and the alien is drawn with dots.
I think that this image has opened up a whole new miniature world for me to love, because I am fascinated with drawing mini city skylines, now. I wanted the monster to be bigger than anything anyone has seen on a movie, and I wanted it to destroy Los Angeles, because I feel that New York gets most of the end of world love. This is the beginning of the apocalypse, and Satan has come to claim the world, starting with LA. You can see the Griffith Observatory in the foreground. I think it might be my favorite part. I also love the use of black space below and above.
Giant Mongolian death worms are amazing. This is another piece that I would probably like to go back in and touch up. I think the shading could be better, but not bad for a partial day’s worth of work. Trying the foreshortening thing again, too.
ALL THE DOTS! I think that after this piece the dots started to diminish drastically.
Spiders are tough for me to deal with. An egg hatched in my room when I was younger and when I came home from vacation the spiders descended upon me….it was SO FUN! But, it is always good to face your fears, and I couldn’t think of any better ideas, so I pushed through. This image is brought to you by: My Nightmares. (You’re welcome)
Wendigos are former humans that have been taken over by such an excessive hunger of greed that they turn into cannibal monsters. They have an insatiable appetite and are constantly hungry and emaciated. Their story sprouts from the native american people. Wendigos have more recently been depicted as were-deer looking monsters, but the original legend describes them as more humanoid with graying taught skin and sharp teeth with lips that are torn and bloody. They eye sockets are sunken in and they smell of death. I thought the deer antlers were a little interesting on the animal version of the wendigo, so I used it as a mask of sorts that would lure hunters in close enough for the monster to attack.
The Ciguapa comes from Puerto Rican folklore. They are described as beautiful women with brown or blue skin, and very long black hair that covers their bodies. They are almost like land-mermaids, and they drown men in rivers or kill them in the woods after luring them and wooing them with their strange and haunting songs. Their feet are backwards, which makes tracking them down difficult and they can only be killed during a full moon.
There are so many different versions of Satan floating around in art and culture, and most of them depict him as a suave and sexy man. This is another version: huge, sitting on his throne in Hell, surrounded by the skulls of people. The literal version of gluttony.
What is more graceful than a ghost of a woman? This ghost has a special history in Virgina. Avenel is home to one of the most popular ghosts in America: Fannie Burwell. She married James Breckinridge, right before the Civil War. He went off to war and she visited him in Gordonsville where she caught typhoid fever. She died soon after she returned home. James was devastated for the loss of his new wife and it was said that he took many chances during the remainder of his time on the battlefield, where he was eventually killed.
People speak of seeing a beautiful woman on the Avenel property, dressed in fine white clothing of the period. Some say that she keeps an eye out, waiting for her husband to come home from the war. Others say that they hear a woman’s voice asking for water around the inside of the house. It might be the echo of her final days as she struggled with the fever, and her asking for water to quench herself from the heat that would ultimately overcome her. The Avenel house was used during the Civil War, and was also visited frequently by Edgar Allen Poe.
The porch and background in this picture is taken directly from reference pictures of the property, as it is seen, today. Looking at the house from the front, this is the right corner of the newly-remodeled wrap around porch. The Avenel House is used for events and weddings, today.
Filthy, to me, is the dead rising from their graves. I tried out the foreshortening with this one, again. I really need more practice. There is a semi-new technique that is used in this piece, which is the squiggle lines. I used it a lot in college for fashion when I wanted to depict that a lot of bead work or embellishment was going to be on a dress or outfit, but I didn’t want to draw the minuscule details. You’ll see this more in later drawings….like the next one…
The squiggles are strong with this one. I created a scene from one of my favorite books “Frankenstein”. Victor Frankenstein attends the University of Ingolstadt in Bavaria, where he creates the “monster”. I did track down pictures of the University, but it wasn’t as dramatically placed as I would have hoped for (it sits on the river, and I wanted a city skyline effect as a backdrop). BUT! The gorgeous Neuschwanstein Castle overlooks the college and town of Bavaria. It might not be accurate to the story, but at least it ties in the town from the book. I can live with that. This is my depiction of the stormy night that turned the creator into a monster, and brought life to the tragic and neglected Adam Frankenstein.
I thought that this piece was going to be a lot more complex, but it turned into something a lot more minimal with a lot of black space, and I love it. Who doesn’t like dragons waiting in a deep and dark cave for an afternoon snack? I really like the black space in this one.
This is one of my least favorite pieces of the collection, because it looks rushed to me. I got super busy this day with work and almost didn’t draw anything, but I powered through and whipped up something in a few hours, just so I could say that I did it. I’m so glad that I did. I feel that in a challenge, like this one, there will always be one or two days that really bog you down, and you just need to power through them, no matter what.
Fenrir is a giant wolf, and one of Loki’s children (Norse mythology….or, for those who follow Marvel Comics). He was separated from his siblings, Jörmungandr and Hel. Together, the three would bring down the dynasty, ruled by Odin. While his brother and sister were easy to send away, Fenrir kept growing and growing, and it was decided that the giant wolf needed to be bound. Two times he was bound and broke free. (no rope or chain could hold him). He was successfully bound the third time, by a ribbon made by dwarves that was given to Odin. It was called Glepinir’s cord, and was made of six very special ingredients: the sound of a cat’s feet, the roots of a mountain, a bear’s sinews, a woman’s beard, a fish’s breath, and a bird’s spit. During the time of Ragnarök, the earth would shake and loosen the ribbon from Fenrir, who would swallow Odin, the chief of the gods, whole.
The squiggles are also very strong with this one. I had a friend tell me that although he isn’t afraid of clowns that the squiggles create a static noise in his mind that creeps him out. I never understood why people are so afraid of clowns, but I know I wouldn’t want to run into him on a path.
Vampires and blood. I really like the grasp of the neck on this one. The crosshatch is starting to look a lot better.
This drawing features my own eyeless creature, who decided to steal the eyes of a young woman. This one is presented to you by: My Nightmares. (You’re welcome, again) I think that this is another turning point for my technique. The shading is becoming a little more solid and the lines are getting finer. I can’t decide if the squishy eyeballs or the loose hair are my favorite element about this…definitely one of my favorites of the collection.
A Kraken and a ship. This is another one that turned into a “minimalist” piece. There were going to be detailed waves, and a stormy sky, and the whole canvas was probably going to be filled from head to toe with details, but once I drew in the white caps I thought it was perfect the way it was. It drew attention to the right places and the black space made everything pop. Gotta love that black space! The tentacles look rushed, and I might like to add more detail to what is already here. We will see.
When I was little, I remember watching a short TV movie where the main character gets stuck underground in a series of tunnels and tries to crawl away from flesh-eating rats. She reaches a dead end that happens to be in a coffin and the rats eat her alive. I had seen it only that one time but it is an image that has stayed with me all of these years, so I tried my best to draw my version of it.
It was a little complicated trying to come up with an effective layout, because it is underground and in very close quarters, and I wanted to capture a close up of her in the split-second moment when she realizes that she has no way out. I drew the scene as if the end of the wooden coffin were made of glass, so that we can see her. Her hands push against the panels as the rats start to make their way around her. What a horrible way to die. It would be bad enough without the rats….honestly.
There is something that I need to fix in this one….foreshortening skills are improving, but I overlooked something. Overall, the techniques are solidifying and the shading is becoming that much more effective with each drawing that I do. I really am astounded that it took so little time to see this much improvement.
Movies like “The Grudge” and “The Ring” scare me the most. I think I stopped watching scary movies after seeing those two because they were so triggering for me. But I couldn’t pass up drawing such a dramatic image. I love and hate this drawing so much.
My original concept for this piece was to have a raven man falling from the sky surrounded by raven birds. What it turned into was this. They do look somewhat like angels but they are supposed to be some sort of raven creatures falling out of the sky. There’s something so elegant about this one. It was refreshing to draw after dealing with the girl on the stairs.
When the walking dead unite, we are all doomed. So many faces…there is no way I would have been able to complete even five of these people in the first week of drawing for Inktober. I got a lot faster as the days went on.
Easily one of my favorite pieces because of the lighting and the simplicity. A little girl hugs her teddy bear as she hides in the closet from the thing that ultimately finds her. I’ll let you decide what that thing is.
I had to go out with a bang for Inktober. This piece took the longest, by far. Much longer than anticipated but I was able to finish before midnight last night. (I did rush a bit toward the end of the night, so I would like to go back and touch up a little of Christine’s face) The Phantom of the Opera is near and dear to my heart and I wanted to draw something a little more creative than a slasher film, mask-wearing, stalker. So, I drew a fancy, mask-wearing, organ-playing stalker.
This scene is taken from my favorite part of the score, at the end: the trio. (Sung by Christine, the Phantom, and Raoul) The Phantom wraps a noose around Raoul’s neck and gives Christine an ultimatum at the cost of Raoul’s life. The greatest challenge of this piece was capturing the raw emotion of each person in that split second of chaos while also balancing the composition of the drawing. I tried positioning Christine behind the phantom as if she were running toward him with her arms out, but it didn’t feel right to have her positioned behind the men. It wasn’t strong enough. I wanted to be able to see Christine’s terrified expression as the Phantom’s insanity reached its peak and honed in on her.